paraesthesia

Links for the desperate.

2009-08-03T17:55:46Z

http://www.oreillynet.com/cs/weblog/view/wlg/448

http://www.turnpoint.net/wireless/cantennahowto.html

...Although, Gog's link to the TechSunny Rocket was definitely a desperado's dream come true. ;P

Haha, Yes!

2009-07-29T15:54:21Z

I can _totally_ identify with the strip today!

http://imgs.xkcd.com/comics/lease.png

...Although, maybe instead of building legos it's that I play RPGs, and, instead of thinking about Batman, I am thinking about traveling the backroads of Country X! Haha. WTF does it mean anymore to be an adult??

Testing, testing, 1-2-3....

2009-07-20T22:14:12Z

Okies, well, silence from this end for a bit, no? 3 months or something? Hmmmm.

Anyhoo, got my Master's done back in May, now just reviewing for my %^$*&#@ board exam (to get my license). Let's just say that, so far, the going hasn't been easy. I am _exhausted_ by this whole process. I'm also not entirely sure that being at people's beck and call the rest of my life is something I am all that enthused to do. Sigh. 'Am ruminating on whether being some sort of researcher wouldn't be more interesting - although, with only a Master's, I couldn't do much except corral participants and specimens for study. Sigh.

Lots of reading of books for pleasure has also put me in the mood for writing - but, eh, haven't written a creative thing since high school or early college, and feel a course would be in order before anything decent flowed from my pen/fingertips. It's funny that I swing at least once per decade between wanting to be a retiring academic type and wanting to be active with people on a daily basis. Must be hormonal! ;)

Forayed into SL briefly Sat night - it was nice to pop in again after almost a year's absence. In fact, it was just pleasant enough (and not too laggy) that I might do it again sometime in the near future. Hee. Thanks, Zozo, for being, well, a *lovecat*! Murrrrr! ^.^

'Hope y'all are well out there....

Quiet.

2009-04-09T04:01:19Z

I've been a bit silent of late. I'm finishing up my program and going on job interviews. 'Been spending a lot of time thinking about how I am moving into a new part of my life - not just for work, but on a personal level. I haven't been motivated to post much here - have been to introspective, I guess.

I need an xkcd translation, please.

2009-03-02T21:10:00Z

Anyone? WTF was that today??

Dragon? Really?

2009-02-08T02:00:44Z

Stolen from catsarah

What's your inner spirit?

Dragon
You feel free. Your loyal to your friends and family and you stick up for them whenever trouble comes about.

How do you compare?
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Fursuits & xkcd

2009-02-06T22:55:08Z

Did anyone see today's xkcd?? Fursuits are on there!

Sorry, I can't help myself...

2009-01-28T03:02:54Z

I just had to post this one, too... :P

2009-01-27T05:42:47Z

Citrus Soldier

paraesthesia @ 2009-01-26T23:26:00

2009-01-27T05:27:05Z

Found on Citrus Soldier

Intriguing political meme.

2009-01-23T20:29:50Z

Madame catsarah is the source...

My Political Views
I am a left social moderate
Left: 6.45, Authoritarian: 0.43

Political Spectrum Quiz

My Foreign Policy Views
Score: -1.15

Political Spectrum Quiz

My Culture War Stance
Score: -4.16

Political Spectrum Quiz

Interesnaya!

Funque.

2009-01-22T02:13:15Z

School: Last term; I already have a bad case of "not into it at all" and it's only the 2nd week. 'Not into my classmates - I have a bad attitude about the majority of them (my own judgemental fault, I am sure); not into my coursework. 'Pissed off at my preceptors - I do not have their experience, years of knowledge, or perspective on what I am doing. I did CNM school because I wanted a career that wouldn't drive me apeshit, and that would allow me a slightly less impoverished lifestyle than the one I grew up in. I am having tremendous angst about The Job once I graduate.

Personal life: I am seeing a fertility specialist at a local women's clinic next Thursday to discuss artificial insemination. I am not emotionally ready to give up on my reproductive potential. I still want to try to be a mother of my own body. I struggle with a sense of failure because I have no partner, but, so far, I am unwilling to allow the lack of a partner to stop me from trying this. We'll see how it goes - my eggs are now 'very old,' and I had fibroids removed in 2005 that disfigured the lining of my uterus. I am dubious about my ability to get pregnant.

I need a fucking drink.

Things to think about in 2009

2009-01-03T06:41:57Z

...A new job
...A radically higher level of professional responsibility (I will be delivering babies independently at some point this year)
...The twilight of my reproductive years (my mother hit menopause very early and, after having worked in high risk L&D for almost 6 years, I would never personally encourage a woman to get pregnant past the age of 40)
...Pushing 40
...Figuring out if I can be "ok" with who I am and, more importantly, be "ok" with the limitations that come with who I am
...A hobby (or two or three) that I can really sink into and that I can utilize to occupy some of the hours that I've spent in the past feeling sorry for myself
...Writing
...Doing research (for work, outside of work, and/or totally unrelated to work)
...Getting more and regular exercise
...Learning to say "no" without feeling guilty

Strangely pleased that 2008 has been shuttered.

2009-01-01T08:09:34Z

Rather looking forward to this year - here's to hoping excellent things come my way (and yours!).

:)

Really tired of the "violent sex" fad

2008-12-28T15:17:52Z

As someone who has been sexually assaulted both as a young child and again as an adult, I am REALLY FUCKING tired of hearing and reading about other people's desire to get their kicks by perpetrating violence on themselves or others. I wish that sexual violence wasn't a part of so many people's sexuality.

Mmmmmmmeme.

2008-12-27T02:23:06Z

via her royal furryness, catsarah...

Say you were meeting a new person, blind date, new friend, who knows, and you wanted them to have some idea of what kind of person you are, and who you are. But you can't actually tell them in so many words.

Instead, you have to give them a box, with a dozen things in it for them to look at/read/listen to/taste/whatever. What would you put in the box?

1) A memory stick with a sampling of the music I like
2) A memory stick with a sampling of some of my own photos and some UrbEx photos
3) A book about Eliz I by Allison Weir
4) Pine needles
5) A copy of "Some Like It Hot" w/ Tony Curtis & Jack Lemmon
6) A random, Lonely Planet travel guide
7) Some Russian Caravan tea
8) A bunch of lavender
9) A plushie microbe
10) A pregnancy wheel
11) My pocket guidebook to "Managing Contraception"
12) The Jawa action figure toy I've owned since I was 7 years old (from the first "Star Wars")

...*smile* That was fun, Cats! Thanks! :D

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2008-12-25T15:57:44Z

This was posted on dragontrap's LJ....Way cool! And this short is the basis of a Tim Burton film coming out next year. :DDDDDD Happy Day, Y'all!

Righteous.

2008-12-23T16:08:15Z

Meme-o-rama courtesy of: shockwave77598

Which creature of the night are you? Your Result: Sorceror Control is the name of your game. You are a studied tactician and scientist and you seek a kingdom where things make sense, damn the morals, even if you have to create it. You are cold, calm and calculating.
Vampire
Demon
Ghost
Cthulu Spawn
Werewolf
Incubus/Succubus
Which creature of the night are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

This quiz is hysterical! Best line in the answer selections: "A circle of stones in the full-moonlit woods and a boombox playing Canadian folk-rock." ROFL!!!!!

Very busy day.

2008-12-13T21:58:27Z

Oof! My internal clock woke me at 6:30 this morning! O.o I bought one of those light box things for sun therapy in the winter time...I sit near it for 30" each morning to get the "brain is happy!" effect. I think it's actually doing a much better job resetting my sleep clock than the happy brain stuff (although, resetting the clock may have to do with happy brain stuff, I'm not sure). I'm *wiped* now around 10 or 11p, crash out for 7.5-8 hours and then am UP. I mean, there's no lolling in bed action anymore; I have to get OUT OF BED! Wild. Problem is, I can't go to bed at 10 or 11p all of the time - some evenings, I have to work until 11:30p or, like tonight, I have a holiday party to attend. I've flipped through the light box manual and it says to stay awake longer at night, you need to do another 30" sitting at a lesser light intensity in the early evening. So, in about an hour, when it's completely pitch black outside, I will try that and see if my eyeballs can stay open tonight. Hmph.

I may, however, be a lost cause today - I've done waaay too much already. I'm pooped. I did a very brisk walk/run this morning and then dove right into laundry/dishes/putting together a table for my foyer....I haven't been this busy in awhile. I'm not even sure coffee would do much right now. I suppose I could make a cup of black tea and read for a bit....

Ooo, it's been awhile!

2008-12-10T18:25:58Z

Hm, my yap has been shut for a bit - prolly a good thing. Anyhoo, just finished up my penultimate semester of grad school. Woot! One more to go and I can catch babies for a living. I have to admit, I'm a bit nervous -- prolly will be for at least the first year or so of whatever job I get.

Ho-hum, not much else going on in the Para world. 'Got me new Studio15 Dell lappie, but f*ing Windows Vista is being shit about accepting files from my old lappie (with WindowsXP installed on it). *sigh* So, I have my best nerd buddy fiddling around with it. I still have to cackle at how big it is compared to those wafer-thin Macbooks. Damn, you, Apple!

There's snow on the ground here which is nice - although a little wild for how early it is in the season (hell, it's not even technically winter yet!). Plans to do a roadtrip to the Big Easy have fallen through, so now I am contemplating just heading over Columbus, OH-way and bugging an old friend of mine. I will go absolutely lulu if I have to hang out in Chicago the entire winter. Enough cannot be said for changing your location at least once a year, even if for only a few days. I'd've liked to have gone somewhere a bit toastier, but, meh, not to be. *shrug*

'Hope all you furries'n'humans out there are well. *hug*

Smeep.

2008-12-03T05:09:03Z

Yuck. Last day of classes tomorrow. Have to turn in clinical folders and make a presentation to the class. I've got my powerpoint stuff all ready to go; my end-of-term reports are run and printed. Ugh. And there're 2 laboring midwife patients at the hospital. I am torn: I am tired and class is early tomorrow; plus, I'm signed up to work 8 hours. But, it's always wise to add to the delivery total (makes potential employers happier to see more rather than less catches)....Umpf. I'm also kinda down - just missing regular texts, chats and phone calls from a former friend. Feh. Well, I guess I'll call over to L&D and see what's going on....

My long awaited review of my G1

2008-11-30T21:31:02Z

So, zorinlynx is to blame for me finally getting off my arse and posting something here.

Pros:
Dude. Internet browser + g-mail + phone + music playing device = MAJOR WIN. These things combined make it waaaay better than my Treo. I'd really wanted the music playing capacity and had been lusting after the iPhone for this very reason. I'm glad I waited until T-Mobile (my carrier) had something to offer. Hopefully, as with the iPhone, I'll be able someday to buy speakers and toss my 1980s era boombox. Additionally, if I was going on a long trip, I could DL some movies to the G1 - very cool. Call quality is generally excellent and I've had no glitches with the OS.

Cons:
T-mobile 3G network kinda sucks. 'Tis tres limited (and a bit slow) and the phone just kind of shuts down if I'm in, say, a thick-walled building. I have to shut the phone off and restart it to get it to hunt for a network and signal again after being somewhere with no access. There is a Qwerty keyboard and trackball (in addition to a touch screen), but there's something less intuitive about that then the flick-pinch-tap business on the iPhone. I also kinda miss the stylus pokey stick on the Treo. *shrug* I am pleased to have my G1, but I got in at the "ground floor" - so far, I have yet to be able to buy a cable/gadget to allow me to use the G1 in my car for music (this may be my own ignorance, tho, I just haven't seen anything like this on the T-Mobile website). Also, no way yet to have communication with my computer -- I'd love to put the MP3s on my harddrive onto the phone, and vice-versa, but, my lappie no recognize Mr. Phone. Oh, and I'll prolly also have to buy a bigger memory card for the phone...

I think devices like the iPhone and G1 are, for at least the next few years, the way things are going; I am sure that all sorts of applications and functions and gadgets will be put out there for use. I'm still thrilled and excited with my purchase (and maybe I'll have more time soon to fart around with it and find cool apps, etc.) ^_^

...Silliest app for the G1: "Krystle II" - turns the G1 into a tribble: picture of fur that vibrates when you "pet" the screen. Lol.

Miniscule.

2008-11-30T00:24:55Z

This had me cracking up for a bit this afternoon:

Getting sluggish.

2008-11-28T20:12:03Z

Lol, I've been cancelled from work the last few shifts I signed up for (worked an astonishingly low, 6.5 hours last week), but I am not being cancelled today. The prospect of, ugh, working, is bothering me. Haha! I've become a slug! I think I'll stop by the cafe in the hospital and get a nice big coffee...foxes are feeling smeepy today....*yawn*

Oh, and "Mary" was great last night - one major flaw, however: Queen Mary of Scots and Queen Elizabeth I never met IRL - they were so terrified of laying eyes on each other (female ego, IMHO), they purposely stayed apart (even though Mary was Elizabeth's prisoner in England!). One other tidbit: the role of Eliz I was played by an English actress, Glenda Jackson. When I Googled her, I found out she's a Labor MP with her own Facebook page! She says on her website to be creative in one's friend request and she'll friend you! Lol. The temptation to snag a Commander of the British Empire as a friend on FB is really strong!! :D

Thanksgiving a chez moi.

2008-11-27T22:28:05Z

This morning I had to get up early to head to the hospital. I had some post-partum moms to send home and a baby to catch. One of my best friends was working (she's a nurse); once everyone was tucked, she and I had some nice "catch up" time. Ah, that was good.

Tonight, I have no plans. What with my mother's insanity rearing its ugly head again last week, I have no desire at all to spend time with her. So many years of roller-coaster emotions really makes one want to get as far away from them as possible. So, I am in my sacred home space with a simple dinner for one cooking on the stove. I have a few little things to do related to school (mostly just entering patients I saw into the database) and then it's kick back with "Mary, Queen of Scots" on DVD. Ah, just what the doctor - er - midwife ordered! ;) Too bad I don't have a small furry critter to curl up with! (Cats = allergies, and no dogs allowed in my building. *sigh* I'll have to grab a stuffed toy.)

Happy Turkey Day, y'all!